'Paradigm Shift'

2 Sep 2014
Bismillahirahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum w.b.t. 

Thank you Allah for the independence. May we Malaysians continuously be grateful with Your gifts.

No baby, no worries? Not true. We are all Mama now ;)

  • Ummi Lisa advised me not to travel far since I'm approaching week 37. Syahmi is anticipating that I'll be in labour soon. May Allah ease. 
  • Oh I have not shared with you lot on which gynae I'm with eyh? Hehe. Will do so in another entry, insyaAllah. Oder perhaps let me give birth first ;)
  • I used to be afraid of driving test aber this one is way scarier. Aber I don't think about it too much when I'm alone. Just when people start discussing about labour, then only it sends shivers down my spine. 
  • T_T

When they were young.
  • I had a discussion with Syahmi about how our plans about life need to change since it is no longer just the two of us as a unit. 
Ayla: If there is still no baby und if something happens to our family...
Syahmi: (he cut me off) I know where you'll be.
Ayla: Where?
Syahmi: UK.
Ayla: (oh husband)
  • I would like to think it is easier to find way out of trouble without having to think about the welfare of our child. Aber I believe that Allah s.w.t. knows best und every hardship comes ease.  
  • I don't fancy if Syahmi takes things lightly. Because we both know that people tend to go astray without advices. Been that, done that kind of situation I suppose?
  • To avoid such negativity in marriage, we both need to look at ourselves und change into better people. How easy is that eyh? NO. I find it EXTREMELY difficult aber that doesn't mean we need to give up. 
  • I've been observing people around me especially my parents in law. I observe on the way they communicate, the way they bring out themselves, the way they treat their grown up children, the way their children treating them etc. I am still curious on how Syahmi turns out to be him.
  • Him. 
  • I might know Syahmi's two sides, aber if he has three sides instead of just two, then I am absolutely oblivious of his third side. Then it is not my fault of not knowing ey? 
Detox night, bi iznillah ;)

  • It is not easy to be positive all the time. People tend to take advantage on your positiveness. Aber that doesn't matter. As long as Allah s.w.t. knows our intention/niat, then we're alright. Yeah?
  • When I was eleven, I never thought that life is going to get harder. I was still playful; had the chance to play with arwah Ayu whenever I wanted. We played til dark, we secretly did this und that, life was easy back then. 
  • Aber now, I'm a zaujah to a young senior asphalt racer in a racing game, who will always be young at age compared to me und I'm a mother of one yet to see the world child. 
  • How do you think I should see life right now?
  • Definitely differently ey.
  • I'm still trying my best bi iznillah. Aber if I fall, then to those who care, please help to lift me up.
  • Allahul musta'an.
 

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